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It is the end of day #3, and I'm feeling great!  Last week this time I was eating cinnamon bagels with cream cheese... Today I'm full and on my way.  It's 9:30pm and I still have a 'meal shake' up my sleeve for later tonight before I go to bed.  That will keep my sugar under control and keep me from the jitters.

I'm implementing a new strategy today, and I know my coach has discouraged me from it, but I find it helps.  I'm going to weigh myself every day.  Knowing where I am with regards to the scale helps me focus.  I understand I will NOT be loosing weight every single day, and that is ok!  When I don't weigh myself it is easy for me to turn a blind eye and cave into eating.  When I know I've lost, even if a pound, and I'm feeling light, then I can concentrate on that and tell myself "you see? it's worth it!", rather than, "you've got until Monday to catch up"... without knowing how badly the damage is.

Case-in-point:  I'm back in the 60's today!!!
This thought gives me strength to tell myself "I'm not going backwards again". 

For 2 months now I've been struggling with getting back on a consistent trend and reaching that 'fat-burn' state.  I've been pondering and struggling with 'lost time' and calculating 'where' would I have been, had I not indulged in that wonderful FLAN Thanksgiving week...  Wonderful love-hate relationship with sugar!!!  Not any more!  I'm looking forward and telling myself I just needed a break.  The problem lays in learning to cope with real food once I reach my goal.  How will I look at food?  I don't want to tell myself I will not eat certain things again.  I love food!!! ...and who doesn't?  But there has got to be a way to be able to enjoy those foods dear to us, without breaking the scale!  My guess "sporadically" is the answer.